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Why

I met you once
In the little coffee house I worked at
Being new in town, you were looking for guidance
You were in a hurry so you did not stay to chat
You were on your way
Through the country
Was all that you would say
You said `thank-you’ blithely
And you were on your way

It must’ve been fate
For, just three weeks later
I saw you walking through Wal-Mart at a slow rate
When, at the coffee shop, I never thought I’d see you after
We got to talking
Sitting by the windows in the McDonald’s inside that store
And it seemed as if my life was brightening
But, of you, I wasn’t sure
If I would see you again, was something that I couldn’t help asking

Every instinct I had was saying to run
Every instinct I had was saying to stop talking
They said I should have stopped this before it had even begun
But, that I didn’t listen, was shocking

Why didn’t I listen?
Why did I stay?
Why did I fall for the way your blue eyes would glisten?
Why did I join in this silly play?
Why did you have to play me like that?
Why didn’t you stay away?
Why did you keep me to chat?
WHY AM I MEANT TO LIVE THIS WAY?!


You became my boyfriend
And I was hooked
On you, I came to depend
So much, that it was impossible to become unhooked
Being in foster care
I needed someone
And, my troubles, you were willing to bear
You were willing to care for the poor little girl that was broken
You took away my despair

But I knew the goodbye was coming
The inevitable
The gut wrenching
The terrible
The thing I know most about
But am too stupid to avoid
That will come without a doubt
The thing that, for many years has, with my heart, toyed
The goodbye that causes, in me, a burnout

Every instinct I had was saying to run
Every instinct I had was saying to stop talking
They said I should have stopped this before it had even begun
But, that I didn’t listen, was shocking

Why didn’t I listen?
Why did I stay?
Why did I fall for the way your blue eyes would glisten?
Why did I join in this silly play?
Why did you have to play me like that?
Why didn’t you stay away?
Why did you keep me to chat?
WHY AM I MEANT TO LIVE THIS WAY?!

STOP THIS!
Stop this pain
That is brought on every time I think of your kiss!
Won’t you explain
Why you did this?!
Stop the acting!
Stop the madness!
Stop binding
Me to you and your phoniness

Why
Why
Why
Why
WHY?!

Why did you play me?
Why did you make me love you?
Why is my life so crappy?
Why did I have to take all you said as true
When they were all lies?
Why did you leave me?
Why did it cause so many cries?
But you will see
That, those that once tore me down, will no longer: Goodbyes.

Why
Why
Why
Why
WHY?!

No more lies
No more truths
No more cries
No more carefully crafted half-truths
NO MORE ANYTHING!





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