Everything is going to be O.K

By Anonymous, San Marcos, CA

Dear Mom,

Do you remember when I was 6 years old?

And I use to visit the hospital a lot because I have leukemia?

Do you remember the painful treatments they put me through?

And how they would try to inject new needles in me…

Do you remember what you use to tell me?

You use to tell me that everything would be O.K.

That by doing this I would get better.

So I would stop crying and let them poke me…

Poke me like a cactus would poke on a 100 degree day.

Then later the needle would burn like the sun would leave sunburn.

Well ever since then I’ve been fighting this war to survive.

But you and I know that I’m becoming weaker and weaker.

And it seems like this Cancer is going to win this war….

Mom I thank you for sacrificing everything for me.

I know my brother and sisters had to make changes in their lives too.

I know they got mad when you would tell them

“We can’t do that because your sister can’t do that”

Or

“Don’t you understand we can’t afford that?”

It would hurt them cause’ I would get all the attention.

And I’m sorry for taking all the attention from them.

But now you can take them to the sandy beach.

And play with them in the blue water.

Take them to places then couldn’t go….

I’m sorry for all the times we got into stupid fights.

I didn’t know what I was thinking then but it’s all over now.

Now you can fight with my little sister.

I’m sure you’re going to have fun with that.

All I hear in this empty room is the machines beeping slower and slower…

And the nurses’ voices I hear down the hall…

Well their voice’s getting quieter and quieter….

Now I can sleep in peace.

I know how hard it is to say good bye

But you got to let me go...

Mom I love you so much and

Tell my brother and sister I love them too…

That if they need me I will always be there for them…

Just remember that in time we are going to see each other again.

I’ll be watching over you…

Everything is going to be O.K….

Bye