Is this what it feels like to be alone?
In the middle of friends, but so left out
In my mind for the only place to escape
Inside myself for my form of security
Into the very depths of the dark in which I cry
Is this what it feels like to be alone?

This place which shows me everyday
This place that reminds me I don’t matter
That I’m just another speck to waste oxygen
This place which shows me all the time
That I’m merely another person in this world
That I’m just another somebody left alone

Supposed I were to tell you I would die today,
Sincerely meaning what I said in all honesty
Secretly I had told you, would you tell?
Supposed I were to tell you I would do it myself,
Sincerely would you even think to care?
Secretly I had told you, would you tell?

Up most confusion is what I feel to the third degree
Upset and degraded upon what is real to only me
Unique but sincere remarks isn’t what I want to hear
Up most confusion is what everyone makes me feel
Upset and degraded is what society makes me out to be
Unique but sincere remarks is what society feeds to me

Chaos lives within me next to my heart
Cold and unfeeling as a stone wall can be
Callusing my feelings so I don’t let them show
Confusing thoughts that parade through my veins
Comforting themselves into the folds of my mind
Chaos lives within me next to my heart

Knowing messages I send that you refuse to read
Knowing languages that only I can speak
Knowledge of me crawling under my skin
Knowing that no one cares enough to dig in
Knowing this, but yet, I still try and try
Knowing messages I send that you refuse to read

Suffering and pain is what I’ve come to know
Solid fences that my mind puts around me
So nobody can ever break into my world
So nothing can ever escape the reality of me
Screaming my defiance so painstakingly silent
Suffering and pain is what I’ve come to know.