So small so little so teeny so tiny. That heart, his heart is as black as night. It is as though he has a bottomless whole. Girls fall in. But they cannot get out. He is the school player. He lies. He cheats. I can't believe i fell for him. My simple defeat. I thought i knew him. I thought he cared. I was wrong. Now i am scared. Scared i will want him back. Scared i will forgive him. I fell into that whole. And now. It is dark and cold. I can't find the light. I cant find my way. Way out of this pit. I am hurt and Bruised. And sobbing with anger. That whole. That dark whole.
April 4, 2011