I have lost a great friend. I loved him. He is amazing! Im counting the 30 days until he get outs. Im going to miss him like crazy. Who am i going to run too when i need help? who is he going to run too? He is in a room by himself half the day. GOD this makes me so upset. To see him shaking so bad he can barly hold his cig. His face all red, and puffy. You know he is about to cry. He is my rock. He is the one the keeps me going. The one that is there through everything. and he aint here. I know its not his choice. I know he wants to be here. I take one last long look at him and say to him "I'll miss you and I Love you." I dont know how im going to go on while he is gone. with my other rock in and out of Juvie...my main rock was ALWAYS there. never moved. no wind or any person could move him. he would always be there. 30 days and counting. I await his fate.
June 13, 2008