I am bleeding
As I lay screaming silently
For the one i know is true,
No matter how i try to numb this pain
I feel it 10 fold as the cold lady
Of reality hits me with more pain in regret.
I would rather have this pain then to nothing
If not for my pain,
I would wander in cold silence,
Numb to the world around me.

As i wish for just one of my dreams to be true,
Nothing except the one that is true
Can make this pain flee from my being,
All that would remain is the scarred memories.

I still wander in this cold desert
Filled with agony and disillusions,
Numb to the world,
Hoping that one day
My screams may be heard,
My scars may be seen.