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crushed crush

October 4, 2010
By nadi-swagger-chick SILVER, Queens, New York
nadi-swagger-chick SILVER, Queens, New York
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Favorite Quote:
Don't do things you know you will regret


I am brown
He is black,
not much difference...
so why does he avoids contact?

Is it the steriotypes he is scared of ?
Or does he thinks I am not good enough?

For years i had this crush
but now my crush had rust.
The silver pain of my heart now denies the fact that i am in love .

It's like i am not allowed to date
but he goes on as if he has strong faith .
The silver pain in my heart melts as i watch my rusty crush walks as a groom throught the white church gates.
I was happy for some reason
but my silver heart yarned with pain .
My crush is now married
but untouched and single i remain

Since childhood i knew i loved him,
today my feelings still remain the same
I continue to ssay to my self 'life is just playing games'

Through out time i turned grey,
only my old black heart keeps me going by the good things it says
'he will come ,he will surely come lone good day to u . His Black heart and your black heart will make a perfect two.'
I listened to my old heart like i always do .
I deeply believe it was true .

'I LOVE U' i said to him for the very first time one day
But shockingly he replied 'rest in peace, to heaven god will take u where u will stay '
i was really happy for the first time that we talked .
That's everything he said and away he walked .
I smiled in my casket and winked at my heart.
Death was the only thing that ever brought us together from apart .


The author's comments:
i created this piece 25th september 2010 ...
it has nothing to do with my life .
i wrothe it because i was hoping this poet would like it an dpublish it in her book but unfortunately she got caught up with other poems .
i did not work much on this piece .
i just start writing and the words just place themselves in order.
The piece deals with a indian female who has a crush on a black male .. she never told him . but she did made an effort to grab his attension ,however she failed.
he got married but she remain a single virgin.
her love for this youngman was rather strong .
she describes her heart as silver
this shows that her love was strong . later in the poem her heart turned black .. this shows that she was completely in love with this man .. she grew old with this feeling .
i did not used the colours red and pink because most poets use them .. i wanted to bring a different feeling .. 'bitter love '
dull love, no sparkle '
That's about it ..

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