I want to jump and end it all.

I want to let my essence fall.

I love the wind.

I feel it on my skin so soft

Can’t help but feel I’ve nothing
but sinned

I’ve gone aloft

Can’t admit I want it all to end

This wound inside I can’t seem to mend

It’s a day to day struggle to keep breathing

I love the lie

How can no one see me falling?

Some days I do nothing but cry

It always hurts

And I don’t understand why

It all means nothing the shoes and
skirts and shirts

But now I can’t even get high

I don’t have a simple answer

I’m nothing but a deadly cancer

I can’t even express myself in
writing anymore

I messed up and can’t fix it

This pain I cannot ignore

I forfeit

Make the pain stop

Before I finally pop

How do I become ok?

Save me, help me, take me away

I don’t want to stay

I’m not ok!