it didn't take long
for me to notice something was wrong
you were no longer as strong
you stopped playing with me
you stopped smiling as much
then you started to speak in a hush

you didn't tell me anything
because you thought i will be hurt
it was a secret of life and death
kept away from me

you thought it will be the best for me
but cant you see
it makes me hurt more
knowing that any second you can walk out of life's door

to see you cry
brings tears of sadness to my eyes
then i remember you are a soldier
and when i was little
you said you were a man of your word
but you never promised how long you'll stay on earth

when i was a young one
i thought you'll be here with me until the days on earth were done
now as i remember your words "thinking comes from not knowing"

i pray every night
hoping you won't go to the bright light... yet

i don't think of the days ahead
when there a chance you might be dead
i don't want to think of death
when i have to wear my black dress
i don't want to think of life knowing that the doctor might say you only have a few months left

am i to think of the weeks you spent in the hospital or time you stopped fishing
the good meals you put your heart into
or everyday since the sickness you said "i love you"

you tell me you are between the life and death
and i say "i love you" everyday hoping it will wash the sickness away

even if it seems impossible thing to do
no matter what daddy i will always love you