It’s an addiction
That I can not shake
An addiction
Where I sleep when I’m awake
An addiction
Where I crave the pain
An addiction
Where I willingly lose the game
It is a constant struggle
Between me, myself, and I
For we are truly different people
And we don’t see eye to eye
It is definitely not natural
And so I feel this inhumane sense
I get pleasure from my pain
For every time I wince
For every time I bite my lip
And tell myself no more
And the time right after that
When I give in to the allure
For the times when
I hang my head in absolute sorrow
And five seconds later give in
And leave the consequences for tomorrow
How long will this go on?
No one can say
But I’ll be here huddled in my corner
Until that day