I try to smile but i give up. I fall down and let the tears take over. I try to keep it bottled, tightly shut. But as you see its unloosely open. So I am vulverable by all the sudden chaos. Its taking over my life. The fear, and naive is all around. I cant shake it off. Let it go from my system. Somehow. someway i lost myself so farway where i never cared before.