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I've come to realize
How selfish my poetry can be.
For the most part my rhymes
Have been all about me.
And I can never seem to understand
Why anything ever goes wrong.
So I cant find a solution
To keep this pain from stinging too long.
My friends are all worried
Some disguise it with
Humor and all too
Obvious lies,
But for the life of me,
No matter how hard I try,
I cant shake this attachment
To sadness and this
Feeling of insane madness
That I latch my life to
And wrap my dreams around
And the dramatic music i play in the
Scenes in my head
Is way too profound.
Why cant I just swallow
The tears
Instead of letting appealing outsiders
Whisper sweet everythings in my ear?
I choose not to
Make things okay?
I'd kill myself before
I see that day.
So instead I drown myself
In lies and insane pleas,
Reaching out for attention
You always seem to give to me
Perhaps out of fear
That I might really be insane
So you ride alongside me
On this roller coaster of pain
All for nothing.
Everything we love will go up in flames
And you cant seem to put it out.
And I cant seem to respond to my name...
Is this how its going
To be forever?
I, the product of a mother
Who never seems to want to understand?'
I. the offspring of a father
Who expects to be worshiped on his command?
I, the sister
To a failure.
The last hope of pride
For a devoted business man and a broken bride?
Understand that I write
To make big things fade
Behind metaphors and
Worlds that I have made.

Understand that this is me
And every inch of me.
This is who I am
And, for years to come, will be.
I write so
We all can learn
and maybe unlock sealed
Chambers in my heart.
I write
To give you clues
That might help you to
Save me.
I write.
And all i ask
Is that you look
away and look past
The irrational titiles.
Look between the lines.
There are messages like
'please read' and 'help me'.
Answer the call.
I'm begging you.




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kelsey95 said...
Apr. 9, 2010 at 2:15 pm:

That was one of the best poems i have read. I can really relate to it! Great job keep writing! 

 

 
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Ale_18 said...
Apr. 9, 2010 at 1:33 pm:
awsome poem loved it
 
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crushed_vampire said...
Apr. 8, 2010 at 9:06 pm:
This is a really good poem it like expresses feelings, i feel like i can relate, keep on writing.
 
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Someone_Who_Is_Loved said...
Apr. 8, 2010 at 8:36 pm:
Love this! New favourite poem!
 
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sunnyhunnyThis teenager is a 'regular' and has contributed a lot of work, comments and/or forum posts, and has received many votes and high ratings over a long period of time. This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Apr. 8, 2010 at 5:35 pm:
Wow.  There is so much emotion in this.  Never feel guilty for writing about your own problems, because there is nothing wrong with that. 
 
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destinedhearts said...
Apr. 8, 2010 at 4:04 pm:
i really liked it nice job!!
 
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punksk8rgurll said...
Apr. 8, 2010 at 1:01 pm:
This is really good. I can relate completly to this.
 
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Cheddar said...
Apr. 8, 2010 at 9:03 am:
Wow!! That was amazing! So true!! Great work! :)
 
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Whisperer said...
Apr. 7, 2010 at 9:14 pm:
i can definately relate to this. thank you for telling some of us what we can't tell ourselves. brilliant work :)
 
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hollyhottell said...
Apr. 7, 2010 at 10:19 am:
this is really really good. i feel like i can relate. you should check out my work
 
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iliketac0s said...
Apr. 6, 2010 at 2:09 pm:
wow, I LOVE this!!!!! it's really awesome, has great flow.
 
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INnaturegirl said...
Apr. 6, 2010 at 7:25 am:

wow just wow.

girlie this is amazing i LOVE it!!!!!!! <3 * <3 * <3 * <3 * <3 * <3 * <3

 
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Mr_Anonymous said...
Apr. 5, 2010 at 9:37 pm:

A beautiful poem, I can relate to alot of what you are saying (or at least what I think you are saying).

 

I like the line "Whisper sweet everythings in my ear?" It speaks to me (which is a lazy way of saying it made me think about things that I would rather not go into now, in a new and different way. It changed the way I thought)

 
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kysh15 This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Apr. 5, 2010 at 7:36 pm:
this is so beautiful, its amazing
 
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kiwi12 said...
Apr. 5, 2010 at 6:51 pm:
DUDE. I love this, it's freaking awesome. The rhymes are so perfect and it flows and like... ! it makes me want to read it again, which i shall do.
 
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Penelope This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Apr. 5, 2010 at 4:18 pm:
I really like this and it reminds me of the writing style I had when I felt the way you do.  so you have something in common with someone else in the world, both your pain and your reaction to it.  You are not alone, and this time in your life will pass.  keep writing what you feel, and you will go far☺
 
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enchanted4yu said...
Apr. 5, 2010 at 1:49 pm:
This is so amazing and exactly how I feel about my writing sometimes. i hope you can get through what is bothering you and express it more with beautiful poems like this one
 
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