The pain became too much
I had too end it
I had to escape
The flame was never doused
And as it burned
I broke
My life became a disaster
My dreams turned into nightmares
I wanted it to end
I wanted the scars to heal
The mental and the physical
The ones caused by my familiar friend
The ones that were products of my misery
I haven’t felt the calming sting
Of the razor-sharp blades grazing my skin
It’s been forever since I’ve seen the blood dripping down
Like dark red tears
Staining my ivory sheets
The pain getting me to a high
Only leading to a bigger crash
Only leading to shame
I wonder why it started
The cuts lining my arms,
Why were they created?
Why can’t I stop?