I was to little to remember your embrace. I only remembered your face but all in a haze. Nothing is at all very clear all I remember is you being so near. When you died I didnt quite realize it. But when I did all my fears came back. I knew that something was missing because I was left with a huge hole. I always knew you watched over me even though I was really small because you cared about me. And when I knew exactly what happened to you I still could't bare it because I knew that never again would you be by my side and so I cried. It all affected my mind, I had no mother by my side. That's why I never liked the fact of being a lady or even a girl.