And like every other day before..
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I am once again alone....
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sitting in silence upon the metallic fire-escape.
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i stare blankly across the silent sea of city lights
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once so vibrant,now so dim.
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So what made you leave me?..
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Have i angered you so much,that you've come to realize you hate me?
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I'm sorry but I've tried to move on..
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but if you haven't noticed its not cutting out.
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You see I've realized that life is pointless..
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meaningless without knowing that i could be yours..
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I'm ashamed the least to say,..
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because you choose me first..
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You opened a door that could never be opened..
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and now never to be closed...
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i miss you uncontrollably
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you make my lungs cripple..
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my stomach shrivel..
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i feel numb to the point where i dont want to feel anymore..
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you left me without reason
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and its all because you didn't want to believe me
...when i told you the truth...
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Why do you do this to me?