The light shines down

on the miserable face

She doesn't squint,

only smiles through what must

be her pain and betrayal

and disillusionment.

Clearly, she has done this

before

faked happiness

faked contentness

just to put others at ease

Not believing the applause

for her

or the praise for the

wonderful performance

the love I feel for her

Words are useless now

as are actions and thoughts

All meaningless and

jumbled, spilling out of my mouth

like so many things

i always want to say yet never leave

the safety of my lips

Knowing she doesn't love me

Knowing I'm just incompetent

I have been deemed

unworthy in my eyes

I have been deemed

unworthy by others

The blade rises,

the curtain falls

And I have been deemed

unworthy by the

Queen of Hearts