I think I know whats going on now
Its not our fault, he just left us
I wanna explain everything, I dont know how
I have to say everything, I must

When I was 10 years old my mom and dad drank
They were arguing when they came in
I dont know why they both drank
It was my dad who made the sin

My dad went into our porch
I was thinking "What should I do?"
I heard the gun loading, in the porch
I didnt know what to do

He pulled the trigger it was loud
I was wide awake and I got scared
There was no crowd
and i wondered if anyone cared

I cried until I had no more tears
My dad left us, he died
When I cry, i dont want anyone to hear
After his death, all my life I wanted to hide

I told myself, "I need to change."
I'm so scared of showing my emotions
I'm always feelins so much pain
It hurts cause everything is going slowmotion

I wonder if my dad loved me
I wonder if he even cared
In my life I only see
That I am always so very scared

Did I do something wrong?
No It wasnt our fault, i knew
I knew it all along
Dad, I'll always love you