For the first time
In a long time
When I lay my head on my pillow
I yearn to fall asleep
Not only to dream
But rather because I know that the next morning
Happiness will await me
It will greet me
as the early sun bursts through the sky in the early dawn
Splattering the canvas of the sky
With a multitude of fluorescence
I know that I will carry a light around with me
Throughout the day
And that I will for once
Be able to smile
Deeply
Thoroughly
Assuredly
I am not yet terrified that my newfound happiness will end
That wave of realization has yet to wash over me
I am now
Tranquil
Blissfully happy
And if with such happiness
Comes ignorance
Then so be it
At least I am living
At least I am experiencing
At least I can smile.