So People Say................

By , whittier, CA
So there's this boy.
He made me happy.
I always laughed with him.
He was a good friend.
I liked him as more though.
I guess he never saw that.

So I'm a Gemini.
He's an Aries.
A match made in Heaven according to all the horoscopes I looked up.
I always wanted us to be a match made in real life too though.

So people always say that Life Is Full Of Signs.
That the signs will always tell you what to do.
We had so many.
I saw them.
But i never did anything about them.
I always figured that it was better that way.
We could be friends still.
I would be happy for him when he told me about his new girlfriend.
Grin and bare it.
To me it was something more akin to "Cry and Hide It."
When he always commented on a girls body and say how hot they were I would roll my eyes behind his back but smile to his face and say that i wouldn't really know.
I always wished that one day he'd do that to me.
Not calling me hot though.
Calling me pretty or smart or athletic.
Just giving me one compliment.
When he would call a joke of mine funny I would blush deep red and secretly relish in the fact that there was something about me that he admired.
So people say that Being Friends is the road to being "more than friends".
Our road must've been full of potholes and wrong turns and engine trouble.
Because we never even got to being more than friends.
That hurt so bad.

So people say that Falling For Someone Is Easy.
Turns out that they're right.
He was always so nice.
He always looked good.
I always longed for him to make me work for it.
To challenge me.
To make it harder than it was to fall for him.

So People say that The Best Medicine Is Time.
I say that's crap.
I've given it time and i have nothing to show for it except missing him.
If i hadn't been so stupid and jealous.
Maybe things would be different.
I guess that's the way it is.

Turns out some people actually know what they're talking about.
I wish i was one of them.





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AveeBabe said...
Aug. 18, 2009 at 5:01 am
Yea it really does suck. Hes tlking 2 me again. Turst me im not gloating. bc i know how horrible it is.
 
xXsmileXx This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Aug. 17, 2009 at 5:18 am
I completely know how you feel. And you know what, it hurts even worse when you realize not only have you let the potential for a relationship slip away, you've let your friendship slip away. And you know what's worse than that? When graduation day comes around and he doesn't even say good-bye. Trust me, it will always hurt. But time does make it a little easier to bare...a little.
 
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