Now that you're gone I realize what I've lost. I will never know if I'll get you back, but I know now that these feelings ahve always been her. I wish I would've noticed what I was losing, and now it's too late. Everyone is right when they say you don't know what you have until it's gone, and now that you're gone I realize how much I care for you and how I actually need you. I can't go anywhere without having something remind me of you. I realize I was making a mistake by pushing you away, and sadly I didn't know until you were already gone. I don't know what to do with my life anymore now that you're gone. Everything seems to have lost its point and nothing seems right. I now realize this is never going away and I'm hopelessly devoted to you. I wish you could see me and how much I care for you and need you, cause it's something you need to realize.
August 10, 2009