Forever Stained

July 18, 2009
I wish I was numb so I didn't have to feel the pain
I wish I was blind so wouldn't have to see the rain
The thick, black clouds darken the sky
They can't say I've quit, they haven't seen me try
Outside, I let the rain hit my skin
I lift my arms and pray "Forgive my every sin"
After the storm, there's a ray of hope
A rainbow with it's magnificent slope
The colors I've imagined, but couldn't see
To lighten the darkness that hangs over me
A few moments of peace, then it's gone
I step discouraged across the wet lawn
My bare feet leave imprints on the ground
I wish somehow my faith could be found
My trust went out the window long ago
What went with, I don't know
But what went was replaced with what I feel:
Hurt, anger, sorrow, emptiness, it's so real
If pictures are worth a thousand words, then what about this?
A thousand times ten wouldn't be a miss
I feel the blades of wet grass beneath my fingertips
A tear falls on my trembling lips
I can't feel it, but I know I'm cold
A flower in my hand I hold
I'm too blind to see it's beauty
Though it's right here for me to see
I'm so filled with my dark eptiness
But to no one I can confess
I'm used to the darkness, but I can't sleep
I can't spill the secrets none can keep
I hate this feeling I have inside
It follows me everywhere, there's no place to hide
As I sit in the grass, again it starts to pour
My feeling returns, I'm chilled to the core
I stand and start to run with the rain
For I know, deep down, I'll forever be stained
With the blood of the impact you made on my life-
The life you undeniably cut with your scythe

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kressbe said...
Feb. 22, 2010 at 4:45 pm
"I can't feel it, but I know I'm cold"
Laughternchoclate said...
Feb. 17, 2010 at 8:39 pm
This is so good!
BleedingRose said...
Nov. 23, 2009 at 3:49 pm
Awesome! I love this poem, it's really really good! The picture you put with it is perfect. I love this, keep writing, your really good!
Angel*music*lover This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Nov. 24, 2009 at 10:43 am
thank you!
BleedingRose replied...
Nov. 26, 2009 at 9:44 pm
I mean, I can really relate to this! Things have been happening a lot lately and I just took the first step to healing, so it's still really hard. But I will be forever stained. Thank you for writing this!
Rage97 replied...
Nov. 29, 2009 at 11:39 am
Wow, this really is a good poem, and I can relate to you because, I will always be forever stained and good luck with healing but I can't cause hurt follows me were ever I go. Good luck with your problems, lots of love
Carol replied...
Jan. 29, 2010 at 3:42 pm
Holy... That was good. Wow, it has so much emotion coming from it. Definetely one of your best. :)
PoetLaureate07 replied...
Feb. 16, 2010 at 10:07 am
This was really AWESOME!!!! A chick can actually relate to this one!!! It's mysterious, but yet clearer than water..... keep up the good work!!!!!!!
Yung E.R.C said...
Sept. 30, 2009 at 11:42 am
This poem is awsome I love the character you put this into its like watching a movie but im reading. Good luck. And your a great poet!
Tess A. said...
Sept. 13, 2009 at 9:28 pm
This was the first piece you ever showed me... i just love it! :)
Ramna said...
Aug. 19, 2009 at 4:54 pm
Wow. That's basically all I have to say.
Just... Wow.
Angel*music*lover This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Aug. 19, 2009 at 4:39 pm
Thank you! :)
sgtpepperx3 This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Aug. 19, 2009 at 4:15 am
I really like this! The rhyming is very well done; it really makes the poem flow very well. Good work!
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