Waiting
Endless waiting
Cannot keep me from constantly checking
To see if I have an email, text, any message from any device
From him
I can't bring myself to look
As the clock on the wall endlessly ticks
There is no explanation for my actions
My heart is simply telling me something different than my brain
I know that its ridiculous, but I can't help myself
I'm jealous, although I don't want him myself
I feel selfish, as, suddenly
I get a message from him
As the clock on the wall endlessly ticks
I am no longer waiting for the answer
I hold it in my hand