July 12, 2009
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Why must you be so cruel to me
Hurt me with your words?
I haven't yet healed from previous wounds
But here you're opening more
Stabbing deep into my heart
Causing more pain than I thought possible
I think about it every night
Crying myself to sleep
Why must you leave me
When you told me you'd stay?
Why must you lie to me
When you told me it was the truth?
Why must you continue hurting me
When you told me you wouldn't?
I tried so hard to stay with you
And now that I've succeeded
You tell me you're going there
Instead of here
Instead of me
You go with her
I've become the shadow of what I used to be
Lost my voice, my thoughts, my mind,
To the sorrow you've trapped me in
Lost and wandering
Wondering where you'd gone
When did you change
From my ally to my enemy?
From my doctor to my killer?
From my antidote to my poison?
But why is it
That no matter how much suffering you send me
In the end I still need you?
No matter how much happiness you tear from me
In the end I still want you?
No matter how much poison you put in my ears
In the end I still love you?
Why must my heart forgive you
When my mind tells me you're not worth these tears?
Why can't I push this all away
And pretend it never happened?
Why can't I find my optimistic side
Buried under all this pessimism?
When will I become normal again?
When will I heal?
When will I dare to love another?
When the only other is you?

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caughtinamoment said...
May 1, 2010 at 10:03 am
Very powerful. I like the questioning tone of your poem, it feels very honest.
Torrzilla said...
Aug. 21, 2009 at 1:25 am
^_^ I have a poem titled exactly this. haha. But yours is wayyy better. :))) Good job.
GoldenD said...
Aug. 12, 2009 at 7:09 pm
I agree with Kira and I absolutely LOVE it. Its great how even though they are so cruel to the person whos point of veiw you're telling it from, they still care about the liar and need them. this sometimes happens in real life 2: sometimes say someone is mean and cheats on their girl/boyfriend, and the person is devastated but still loves that person, even though they caused the victim so much suffering. Awesome work! :D
iluvfruitbasket3 said...
Aug. 5, 2009 at 4:56 pm
very sad but well put together poem your a great poet
Zero_Kiryu This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Jul. 22, 2009 at 10:26 pm
I love it, and it kind of relates to my situation right now so it made a double impact. I love the questions because it really emphasizes all the doubt and questions you have when you're in a bad relationship. I disagree with griffinwing, I think the format of the poem actual helps it make an impact. I would like to find this person if the exist and whack them in the head very hard with a lemon wrapped around a large gold brick. Good job, great emotion in this! Bravo! <(o.0)> ZERO
His-Bright-Green-Eyes... said...
Jul. 21, 2009 at 3:51 pm
this is wonderful. I like the line "When my mind tells me you're not worth these tears." good job!!! :D
scotttyboy said...
Jul. 21, 2009 at 1:26 am
hey i really liked this poem....ummmm i honestly didn't know that the first part of my poem was already written! i wrote that poem when my friend died and i would never ever ever try to steal anyone elses work. thank you however for pointing this detail out to my attention.
i hope to read more of your work! thanks again!
Griffinwing said...
Jul. 20, 2009 at 8:32 pm
I like this poem very much, the only thing that I think would make it better would be to seperate the lines into stanzas, other than that, good!
project827 said...
Jul. 20, 2009 at 8:24 pm
very nice! i liked this one. now i want to find whoever that was and smack em on the head. hard.
aussie65 This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Jul. 20, 2009 at 5:07 pm
i like all the questions. its very expressive that way.
Surrealist14 This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Jul. 20, 2009 at 3:08 pm
that was great, so sad. I feel the same way some times. Thanks for your support on my work
KiraKira said...
Jul. 18, 2009 at 10:24 pm
I really like this poem! It really hooks the reader in, and I can feel the desperation and sorrow. :) The only thing I suggest is maybe changing 'buried under all this pessimism' to 'buried underneath this pessimistic mask'? maybe, I don't know. Still, I love it!
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