17 years going strong
it seems forever but not that long
for the faith i grip so tightly to
and all the things i'm determined to do
i refuse to fall here in my tracks
i want to run and never look back
forgive, forget all that went wrong
just find somewhere i truly belong
sometimes i hate how much i think
ocasionally it pays off but sometimes i sink
deeper and deeper, i get so low
on my self on my friends everything i know
i question my morals and all i believe
from my family and whats right i start to cleave
i become so distant, start fading away
so i'll put my head down, i'll start to pray
i hope that happiness will come back to me
take back my mind i want to be free
noone understands the pain i feel
they call it an excuse but i swear its real
i would give anything to smile like you
laugh and cry the way you do
but sometimes i feel so numb inside
i want to breath and feel alive
i know if it's not better it's not the end
but please come quick, i don't want to pretend.