losing it

memories,
ages of command,
gather dust in the corner
staring at me with ungudging eyes that only make this harder
lessons learned, forgotten, ignored,
the knowledge that I worked for
Is all lost?
When I turned my back,
out of anger, a lost cause,
did my own soul fade so quickly that there's nothing left to turn to for repent?
Mistake brings on mistake. nothing learned,
no regret where i only wish there was.
Darkness follows darkness. Would I ever shine again?
Could I? Should I?
Or is this my destined fate.
there should be no second chance for the one who tore down everything on a whim of a thought romanced...