This is my mental suicide
My death that will not be seen
I'm killing myself on the inside
Because I just can't take the pain

I found an old diary,
from back when I was young
It hurts to know that even then
Life was never any fun

You know there's something wrong
When an eight year old girl
Writes about just how much
She really hates the world

I hated my life
I i wanted to be gone
But no one ever realized
What was going on

I'm miserable now
And I was miserable then
And I can only look forward
To my soon-to-come end

My dad said he loved me
But I've never loved him back
When I leave he says he misses me
But I just don't believe that

I've always listened to everyone's problems
Simply waiting in silence
Waiting for my turn to vent,
But I still haven't gotten that chance

Now I think that I have cracked
I can't take it anymore
All the pain, the hurt, the hate,
It's too much for me to ignore

And I'm so frustrated
Witheveryone always saying I'm wrong
I can't hide the hurt anymore;
I'm just not that strong

ten years of ridicule
It's never going to stop
Which is why I'm leaving it all behind
And shutting off my mind

Please honor my last wishes
I won't ask for a lot
Just don't let my memory
Ever fade away

Next time you make fun of someone
I hope you'll remember this note
Realize what it does to them
Give them some sort of hope

I just want to scream
And I just want to cry
But I can't take the pain of death,
Which is why I'm not going to die

Instead I've chosen this other path
This other way to go
But before I'm gone and my mind is lost,
I just want you to know

When I'm gone,
If you're wondering why,
The worlds my excuse, the reason behind,
My mental suicide