December 31, 2008
By Anonymous

I slid the blade across my arm
and with the blood released the harm
All my worries and all my doubts
faded as I watched the blood spill out

I cut as a cry
a way to be seen
but never too shallow
and never too deep
Enough to feel the pain
to release the inner scream
everyone says they're a big deal
but they're never as bad as they seem
No one understands
and I'll never be free
because everyone decided
to give up on me
My psychiatrist wonders
why I won't speak
but I can't explain
the secret that I keep

Some people say I'm tempting fate
that I'll cut deeper and deeper
until it's too late
I do this because
I'm so confused
Day after day
I feel like I lose

These other girls here are the same
they have problems
and have to deal
but we're not sure we want help
or how we're supposed to heal
We complain about insecurities
and say we don't want help
but we all have our reasons
and keep them to our self

I start to regret
this addiction that I chose
Because now my psychiatrist
isn't the only one who knows
Now I'm trying to explain
why I do what I do
how I feel insecure
and the chance I think I blew
I tell my story
hoping it will go away
and to figure out why I started this
on that fateful summer day

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on Aug. 9 2011 at 5:31 pm
secrets_of_silence GOLD, Gisborne, Other
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Favorite Quote:
life had i loved the more
had it but passed away
as quietly as the day
ebbs from the darkening star.

-emanuel litvinoff

yeah, its so true(typed with tears in my eyes) 

supermodle45 said...
on Jul. 5 2009 at 8:44 pm
I really love this poem soo much. It really hit home to me becasue over this past year i went through a lot of the same things u are facing. I do believe that cutting is as or ever stronger then drugs. I feel like once u do it theres no turning back becasue your alway waiting for that mommnet that everything thats bothering u in ur mind will go away.. and u keep cutting and cutting over and over again day after day but that peacefull mommnet never comes becasue really cutting is all in ur head it makes u think its helping but its really not. !! <3 _xoxo_ek

on Jul. 5 2009 at 4:24 am
SilverDawn GOLD, Burnaby, Other
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i raelly like the depth and meaning here in this poem. it made me feel inevitably sad and i hope you feel better soon. it's really good and i hope yuo continue to write out your feelings. i'm sure it helps somehow.

on Jul. 2 2009 at 5:35 pm
amazing poetry! love it :) i feel just like that...

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