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What I'm Going Through

My heart is dropping beneath my chest
It's caving in- in the depths of my breast
I feel it sinking- lower, lower
Internally bleeding- slower and slower

How can you stand there and watch me fall?
Or are your concerns about my health just way too small?
Do you honestly believe that smile I force?
How when I laugh, my throat is hoarse?

Do you really believe me when I say I'm okay?
Do you not listen to what the voice in the back of your head has to say?
I can't be upfront- you have enough problems of your own
So I pretend I'm content- my true feelings unknown

You're fully attached to that beautiful boy,
But at the same time, you're slaughtering my joy
I try not to mind when he's all over you,
But my pain is a scar- no longer a bruise

And when you call me at night to spill the things you two do,
You could never understand the thoughts I go through
Yet, eager I listen and memorize every detail
I'd rather know everything- I'm nosy as hell

You can't hog him forever- at some point you'll crack
Then I'll take the liberty to win him back
Oh, never mind, I couldn't do that to you
I won't put you through what I'm going through





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SilverDawn said...
Jul. 21, 2009 at 10:54 pm
wow, that was so beautifully written! the situation you're describing is so sad and i can feel the emotion seeping through the words. i wrote a poem called "tears" in a similar rhyming form. maybe you can check it out some time (: keep writing~
 
His-Bright-Green-Eyes... said...
Jul. 20, 2009 at 11:40 pm
thank you for the comment on my story "My messed up seventh grade year" and i was thinking that too. That he's not worth it. That's why i dont like hiim anymore. Keep an eye out for the second part of the story.
 
unearthlyhaphazard said...
Jul. 16, 2009 at 5:24 pm
Intense, emotional, and AWESOME! You describe a breakup in a whole another way. I love the last verse especially, when the narrator says that she's going to steal him back, but then changes her mind because she doesn't want to put the other girl through what she's feeling in the poem. That really reveals a lot.
 
poemlady123 said...
Jul. 7, 2009 at 10:32 pm
wow that has one word, Talent!
 
His-Bright-Green-Eyes... said...
Jul. 7, 2009 at 10:06 pm
this was the most beautiful thing ever! I loved it so much! It was so well written! I'm surprised they havent put it up for poem of the week! i love it! Oh, and thanks for the comment on my "Exact You" Poem! (;
 
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