Deeper in Me

June 20, 2009
By , Bronx, NY
I don't cry
until i want to.
i don't scream
until i want to.

no one knows what is in my mind
because it's kept private.
i will give you some of my thoughts
to show you how i feel.

when people call me,
crazy,
weird,
stupid,
a loser,
retaded,
dumb,
etc...
i try to hide it,
even when people
be laughing at me.

I make it look like
if i don't care,
but the truth is
that i do care.
i feel like crying
and screaming.

i feel like a nobody
when they say does words in my face.
i feel like a bug
getting ready to be smushed
by a big person.

people be thinking
that i don't care,
but i got feelings too!

the more i don't care,
the more they will hurt me.
i sometimes feel
depressed or broken.

i can't talk to someone
about how i feel,
i will only feel scared if i do.
all i can do is
sit down
and pretend to don't care,
but i do.

So, if you see me hidden
or with watery eyes,
then you can figure out
about how i feel.





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♥NaNa♥ said...
Jul. 7, 2009 at 2:22 am
awwwwwwwww really nice :)
 
Anjo! said...
Jun. 24, 2009 at 3:53 am
Awww, i'm so sorry.=[
 
trang_orange This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Jun. 24, 2009 at 2:41 am
It's ok to feel like that, sometimes I feel the same way. It may be hard to tell someone but you have to open up and trust at least one other person enough to talk to them.
 
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