The pain wont stop.... it never goes away... i may look happy on the outside... but if you look into my soul there is a pain much worse.... much more terrifying.... than you could ever imagine.... I lay there thinking what would just one more time do?... would i be gone forever or would it just make the pain on the outside return so the pain on the inside "left" for a little bit anyways? Yet the pain feels so good so it happens like a replay every day.
June 5, 2009