Three words echo in my mind...


How To Apply



But instead of being

the directions

the map

the road I am to follow,

instead they are a question.


A question which I am afraid to answer.

How To Apply?

How am I supposed to do this?

How am I supposed to abandon everything?

Everyone.

How To Apply?

How can I not abandon this

bull life I now live??

How To Apply?

How can I make everyone understand

that I can't go on in this way?

How To Apply?

How To Type In My Name

And Press Send?

How To Sacrifice

The Girl I Am

For the Woman I Want To Become?

How To Apply.

The three words

I adore

and dread.

But there are three other words

I adore

and dread

even more:

Application Accepted;

Welcome.