The love that I’ve denied is the love that I miss
It’s the love I now envy. It’s the love that hurt me
And suffocated me…it’s the love that I ran from
When I thought I could conquer and the love
That I ran to when I was scared…when that
Blow to my head became fatal I lost
Everything and everyone, impacting my decisions

As if I smoked a blunt, gorged down liquor
And never stopped until I over dosed…that soon
Became my reality check…that I never cashed
In…recklessly continuing my life…as if my
Eyes were disconnected from my brain and
My brain connecting into my feet… everything
Inside out and upside down…my world twisting
And watching as I take my final pitch and hit it
Out the park with amazement