I’m having a hard time watching you smile without me. Am I worth nothing?
All of the time we spent apart, we could have been together.
I sit here and see you smile, without me, and I cry.
I cry for what could have been and for what I wish we could be.
I’m Alone.
And I miss you, you were my sun.
And now I’m sitting in the rain of used-to-be’s… and I cry.
I cry for every moment I spent with you. Every moment I had to prove…
all my love went to you.
Nothing new. You knew.
I thought you loved me too. But now, well now I am left with nothing.
A rain of used-to-be’s ,and never nows and all those sweet something’s.
And loves been lost and never found.
All I wanted was you.
And now, well now I want, I need something new.
No more smiles. On more tears. No more hope. No more fears.

And see.
What you did to me?
You have no idea.

I’m stripped away to the inside of my being and left with the dark shadow of everything.
I thought you weren’t a cheater, a liar, a user a fiend?
Oh, what a judge of spirit I am.
Poor indeed.
Leave me be.
If I think to smile, you appear.

The man in the mask who brings forth fear.
I sit alone and think about the sweet things you said to me. And then I wonder..
What

Was


True?
And what did you say to lie to me…
To USE me for everything.

You think I’d be… WHAT. A toy?
Hidden in a drawer. To be put away and never seen.
Never again will I be truly happy.
You are not going to affect me,
I’m already to far gone to be helped by anyone.
I cry.
For what could have been…

And for what I wish we could be.