Could you look me in the eyes and say you do not care?
Could you look me in the eyes and say I was a mistake?
Could you look me in the eyes and throw away your past?


Go ahead.
Go ahead and try.


Every single birthday
for as long as I can remember
I cry myself to sleep.
Just wondering do you even know I exist?


Maybe, just maybe, you might come walking thought the door
or write me a letter.
Maybe even call me.
Mom and Dad, I am your daughter after all.

I’ve spent my whole life trying to deny you as my own
When my blood is made half and half of you.
And my reflection, well, it simply is of you.

Every single time I make a mistake and fall.
It is guaranteed, I have somebody there.
Not to help me, but beat me down when I am at my weakest.
They tell me I am going to end up like you,


Addicted to drugs.

Alcoholic.

In and out of jail.

Have three kids then abandon them.

Will I become that?
Because I do not want to wait for my life to be over.


The past is the past and forever will be.
As well as me.






I do not want an explanation,
Of who did what or why.
Or even a reason for why things have to be how they are.
Please don’t ever tell me you are sorry.
Because there is nothing you could ever do for me to forgive you.

I try my hardest at every single thing I have ever done.
But yet it really is hardly enough.
Is it because of me?