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I don't know what to do now,
I'm angry and unhappy and tired
and frustrated

I feel beat down and unwanted,
Even though everyone is so close,
But now, even though I know my feelings

I feel blank

I want to wreck and destroy,
will that make me feel better?
Maybe.

Anything is better than this state,

I cant handle it, its not pretty,
It's not anything to admire,
and I don't even want anything to do with it,

my breath in and out,
the room is suffocating me,
when will this end, will my emotions come back?

Can I be myself again?

I want to yell and scream
I can picture the act and the feeling of relief
but have I forgotten how to feel
it doesn't feel like me

I remember my anger
do I feel sad? Did I hurt the other?
Do I feel like apologizing?

No.

I'm lying to myself
I don't understand it
will I forget this sensation?

The feeling is coming back?
Yes.
The people I know who love me
are here with me in my heart

they hold the pieces of my box
the box with my everything

they each stole a piece when we met
they each kept a piece when they left
they each hid a piece when I changed

when will I get it back?
Do I deserve to get it back
my precious emotions?

Will I change enough for them to return it
they will know when I have earned the right to get it back
they will protect it until I am strong enough
because I am so weak

There is no ending to this poem
I am still recovering my emotions
but until I have earned the right
I remain emotionless.





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CurlyFriezzz said...
May 26, 2009 at 12:23 am
Hey, Kat!
Because i know you, sweetie, this seems so much like our best bud.
Not like you. unless you're taking on a persona of some sort...
i like it because i can relate to it. My past is not your past though.
so write about the beauty that you are able to see every single day when you look into the beautiful face of my little darling that lives with you. Love you loads. x]
 
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