Redemption

I seek darkness under the sun
I seek light under the black sky
And though my frail human body
Begs for a reprieve
Desperation in my blood forces me on

I weep the drops of life
I cry the words of suffering
And though my mind tells me “Hush”
I keep screaming to oblivion

Do not tell me to live well
Ask not for me to forgive
Beg not for me to forget
This is not about deliverance

I am not fighting fate
I did not start this
This wheel of never ending destruction

I know who I am
That is not my fear
I know who I was
That is not my regret

What haunts me in the dead of night
Is the enigma of who I will be
But because I know not the answer
I grapple blindly for redemption
Redemption from I