I looked up his ex, she’s beautiful

I can’t help but pinch the fatty pieces on my own body

It’s like I’m changing like a light bulb

About to go out flickering on and off basking everyone inconsistent light and darkness

I sometimes want to drown I lay back in my bathtub

But I’m too tall to bring and hold my face under the water

But for the brief time when I’m under, it’s the calmest I have ever felt

Tropical breeze conditioner flavors the air

And my curls play a balancing act with the water

Until I accidentally open the drain with my toes

And I just lay there waiting for the water to finish draining

To leave my cold life filled body

Weighted

Like a rock at the bottom of the sea