I Just Don’t See How You Picked Her Over Me

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You and me,
We are the perfect match.
I just don’t see how you picked her over me.
She is kind and gentle,
But I am kind and gentle too.
She has lots of friends,
But I have lots of friends too.
She is overall pretty,
And at least I feel that I am pretty too.
She goes to church and is a Christian just like you,
And I go to church and I am a Christian too.
I just don’t see how you picked her over me.
Overall I helped you quite a bit in math and now you won’t talk to me,
But she did nothing.
She just sits by you and follows you everywhere you go,
But yet you will get her a drink and just ignore me like I am just a puff of air.
I wonder what you would say if I asked you if I was pretty…
I wonder if you would say yes and then start to blush,
Or if you would say no and then just stare at me like you always do.
I wonder if you would get Matthew and all the rest of your
Friends to gather around me and laugh.
You don’t seem like that kind of person,
But you hide so much that I can’t tell.
I know what all happened to you when you were a kid,
And I doubt that she knows.
I have kept it a secret for so long,
I have only told the people that I have trusted with all of my secrets,
And the people that would never say anything about it for their life.
Lots of people have asked me why you are so quiet,
And I just say “I guess he just is”,
Even though I know the sad and painful truth.
I wish that I could just rewind all of time and take back everything your father did.
I wish that I could take back those whipping hands,
And the fact that you were so scared to cry even though it hurt so bad.
I wish that I could have made your mom step up and help,
And the fact that your brothers and sister did not know what to do.
I wish that I could stare into your eyes again,
Because I haven’t for weeks.
I wish you knew how much I love you,
And the fact that I think that I am in love.
I wonder if you feel the same way about me…
I wonder if you lay open at night wondering about whether I like you,
And whether I am thinking about you.
I wonder if you think about whether you should dump your girlfriend for me,
Or if you are happy just the way you are.
These thoughts flow through my mind every night and it makes it hard to sleep.
If I knew that you loved me and cared about me as much
as you like your girlfriend I would feel like the richest person in the world.





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Fraley said...
May 14, 2009 at 5:35 pm
Nice poem I have dealt with the same thing for over a year now with a girl wish you could tell me how you ease by this kind of thing
 
Dancer24/7 said...
May 14, 2009 at 1:54 am
Wow, that is an awesome poem! I can't believe you wrote that, i love it!. It's like sad, but deep, and understandable at the same time. Nice...
 
Katrina O. said...
May 13, 2009 at 10:58 pm
I see a specific person's face when i read this..someone in my life. it totally reminds me of the situation i was in with him, and relating to it, made me even more entrigued. that was a very powerful poem
 
:PBUBBLES:P said...
May 13, 2009 at 9:40 pm
I LOVE IT! I can relate as well, it's just so sad and so lovely. There are a few places where you could improve your wording and rhythm, like when you say he ignores you. Otherwise, beautiful poem. Keep it up!!
 
blackamethyst said...
May 13, 2009 at 8:48 pm
very cool and moving poem... haha im from the same city :)
 
tigeress3 said...
May 13, 2009 at 8:35 pm
Wonderful proes!
 
Isaac L. said...
May 13, 2009 at 8:06 pm
This poem reaches out and it's great in every way, keep writing, because when you speak the world will listen.
 
Amaranth said...
May 13, 2009 at 7:17 pm
I think overall the concept and the use of free verse to portray your confusion is very good. However, have you thought about trying to employ more hyperbatons and imagery, more descriptive words, per se, to make it sound less cliched? There are some (not much though) grammatical errors in the poem, not sure if it was poetic license or actual mistakes, so I can't help you with that. If I am harsh, please disregard my comments. Can you check out my poem? Thanks.
 
Ivory-Wolf This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
May 13, 2009 at 1:47 pm
OMG! I love it! It's so sad but I can totaly relate.
 
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