This is life

Why does life have to be
The shame, the hurt, and the pain
I sit and think day in and day out
It had to be me
I'm scared and alone
Far in the darkness
With the deepest secrets never heard by a hear
Onlyto my lonesome soul
I use to never be afraid
But now I'm scared of every little thing
I cannot stand the silince
It speaks too much of me
I feel as if I have something missing a part of me maybe
My heart is broken in two
Seems as if it can never repair itself into whole once again
I don't know who I am anymore
I know my name and age and gender
Just not the person deep inside
I hide the inner me