I miss you

Maybe you miss me too
I wouldn’t know if you did
Sometimes you look at me like you used to
Sometimes I wish you didn’t

You texted me one day
Only wanting to ask for a favor
Understanding I would give it to you

Maybe I open up too much
Or maybe you take so much more
Right now I can’t tell the difference
Even you don’t, I think

Tomorrow I will see you again
Hanging out in the dim-lit room
And I will think of myself alone
Not in your arms

Diverging from the topic of you
Reassuring myself it’s okay
One day I will love someone else
With as much intensity as I loved you
Not a hair less would be right
I think maybe I will love them more
Not out of spite for you, surely
Giving them everything you never could

Loving you was maddening
Understanding how your mind works
Never seems to be achievable
Giving you my all seems silly
Seems impossible

Marking your lips with a brush of my fingertips
I knew it would never happen again
So I let you go that day
So you could be happier

And yet, you weren’t
I remember you calling me
Regaling me with tales of how you missed me