Who am i?

April 21, 2009
By Faith Lee BRONZE, Sykesville, Maryland
Faith Lee BRONZE, Sykesville, Maryland
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Eagar, excited
for the new year
with my new book-bag and pencils
notebooks and shoes

But this time
it’s different, you see
this is not elementary school

more and more teasing
crueler and crueler

more and more pressure
crushing me

more expectations
lurking in the shadows

more people waiting
to laugh when I fall

everything changes so quickly
so fast
until I wonder
Who am i?

I want to fit in
I want to have friends
I want to acceptance
I want more than I have

Anything, anything
to gain what I desire
If everyone approves it
I will surrender

Heavy black liner, shadow, and gloss
a hard, fake mask of makeup
smeared onto my face?
I will do it, I will

Tiny tiny skirts and low cut tops?
I will buy them, and I will wear them

Lie to my parents and yell at my brother?
Yes, alright. I promise I will

Go up to boys
And let their eyes and hands
I will let them
I will, I will

Because I don’t matter
It’s everyone else that does
Yet all this doesn’t help- I am still alone
All by myself

I gave everything up, and still it’s not enough
I thought I would be happy
But I was wrong

I am still wondering
Who am i?

A new day begins
I want to be free
to fly up, up high
Not to stay grounded
with everyone else

I wash my face
I change my clothes
I apologize to my family
And rediscover my dignity
No more following
and no more pandering

Who am i?
Well, I know now
The truth is,

I am me.

The author's comments:
Eeryone struggles with their own identity at some point in their life, and it can be overwhelming, with all the mixed messages you get about who you should be. Well, here's the thing. No one should be able to tell you who you are and who you should be. That is your decision and yours alone. You are you, that's all that matters. And that is the truth.

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on May. 5 2009 at 12:01 am
blackamethyst GOLD, Centerville, Ohio
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yay diversity and individuality. good poem :)


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