No one will ever understand what you put me through

Everything that I ever felt

All the lies I had to put myself through

Everynight telling myself “he is going to get better”

Making myself believe “he is not out with other girls right now”

I made myself believe all these things

It made me hurt even more

I used to lay awake and cry

Bawling my eyes out until 4am

Crying myself to sleep every night

“This is love”

Thinking that this is how it is supposed to be

I’m supposed to be at home

He is supposed to be out

Just cry and cry

No one would ever understand

I don’t even understand

Why was I put through this

Why was I chosen to be put through this pain  

The pain that was caused

The emptiness that was left

The love I will never get back