I am from a closed book
so many secrets that are always denied
never knowing the truth
but believing the lies
a little girls’ body but a women’s responsibility.

I am from daddy’s little princess
golden locks that darken with the years
not just daddy’s little princess but
daddy’s care taker,
supposed to be daddy putting me to sleep but no
a three years old girl putting daddy to sleep
after a night at the bar

I am from the struggles and the heartache
daddy’s not around much
mommy’s always off
only one there is Lamby
my best friend
my only friend
but he’s always there
I carried him everywhere
always hearing my secrets.

I am from my own independence
fending for myself
never relying on others
hoping for the best
but ending with distress.

I am from the broken hearts
starting with the control
ending by being controlled
letting him treat me the way he wants
hopes of change
but never happing

I am from ADHD
medicine holding back the true me
is there something wrong with me?
my friends say “no you’re just the right way”
but what’s the truth now a day


I am from the sorrys and the regrets
daddy and I always getting in to fights
it hurts the most
to realize what I do
but the truth is
I want to let him know

I am truly sorry
I’m sorry about the problems I have caused,
about the fights I’ve started,
about the pain I’ve caused,
but most of all I’m sorry that I am not perfect
but this is me

I am from a closed book
daddy’s little princess
the struggles and the heartache
my own independence
broken hearts
ADHD
sorrys and the regrets
but most of all
I am from the heart
spilling my heart on to paper
just letting every one know

This is me