A False Hope

June 15, 2013
By VinceMcfarland BRONZE, Milwaukie, Oregon
VinceMcfarland BRONZE, Milwaukie, Oregon
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Favorite Quote:
Don't give up


Who am I? I have to ask myself that now a days. I've been very depressed lately, and now I’m alone. Have you ever lost someone close to you, because it was your fault? I have, and its rough.

We spent summer days like this enjoying each others company. A lot of the time we’d end up at the river where I got her to say yes to something every teenage boy wants to hear. “Yes” it felt like time stopped then she was mine.
This was the first girl I cared a lot about. All my other girlfriends were only around to try and feed the sexual appetite of an adolescent boy.
These decisions I made to date those girls I regret now. I matured since then, and would go up to every single one of them and apologize if I could. None really meant anything to me, and I would usually play with their emotion, and walk out on them right after. This is one of the reasons I feel I deserve this break up.

Her and I dated for two years two months, and twelve days. We both were hard on each other at times, but that period of time where I could call her my girlfriend was the best. I wasn't the best to her though. I was very controlling. The whole relationship I never wanted her getting high or being with boys. That was my first mistake. I’m not going to go into detail of every mistake I contributed into this break up, because it doesn't matter now she’s gone.

I've written her letters every day since we've separated that I keep stashed away. They are all the things I want to say to her, but never will. She deserves to go out, and have the time of her life now. I wish I could join her, but I don’t think that's happening.

I haven’t been able to sleep lately. I keep waiting for the phone call saying I love you come back. Even though I know that isn't happening at this point I still hold on to that false hope. A false hope that will be with me till I move on. I don’t know when or if that will ever happen, but I really hope it does.

To the girl I hurt, and controlled I would like to say I’m sorry. I will hold on to this false hope even if you don’t take me back, because it feels like that's all I have left of you. I hope that phone call comes some day.


The author's comments:
Just about how I feel towards my recent break up.

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on Aug. 15 2013 at 4:49 am
Natasha_C SILVER, Bloomington, Minnesota
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Favorite Quote:
"Every day may not be good, but there is something good in every day."
"Life goes on... Whether you choose to move on and take a chance in the unknown.
Or stay behind, locked in the past,thinking of what could've been."

you did a wonderful job!! i love your storie peace.  i hope everything comes to peace

on Jun. 23 2013 at 6:57 pm
nelehjr DIAMOND, Lingle, Wyoming
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Favorite Quote:
Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain.

Addmitting you were wrong is the first step. You should share this peice with her.


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