I had a classmate I like to call “Sid”. He told me once:”I would never date a friend of mine, because I would lose her then”. At the time it didn’t mean much but now it means it all. I dated my best friend. I lost a soul mate and a dear friend, my only confident. Nothing will ever be the same between us. After few weeks he said he wanted us to meet to “confirm” his feelings. I believed him when he said: “I’m sure of my heart 99, 99%, but I need to see you to complete it.” I guess that 0.01% was stronger than all the rest because we met, it didn’t complete. A week later he texts me saying he needs a little break to clear his mind. I’m still waiting for his mind to be cleared. I feel so stupid and naïve. How could this happen? How did we get here? Why am I losing my best friend?
Diary Of a Broken-hearted Girl. Part one: AFTER THE CRASH
July 31, 2012