Heartbreaks don't only come once in a while, you get heart broken when you have high hopes and dreams about something one minute, and in just the flash of a second you're let down. And all that you wished for comes crashing down so you have nothing else to look forward to in the morning. The one person who made your life worth living for is gone and leaves you with nothing but memories, no sign of caring, sympathy and just a memory of their face. When you can do nothing but watch them walk away and no matter how much you ask for them to return, they continue walking. When you're so used to them being a part of your daily life so when they're gone you feel nothing but emptiness and that you're incomplete. Like you can't breathe without them being beside you or having them there with you. How they no longer belong to you & you're left answering your own questions about what went wrong. How it feels wrong that you're not on your own and you're missing a part of your life. Like you've let yourself down because the one person you lived for is no longer with you. Like when you care for someone so much it hurts to care anymore than you already do. But when they're gone the pain just can't compare to how much it hurt when you had the one person, how it hurts to the point where you don't know what the point is to live anymore. To get up in the morning and go on with your life but at night it's hard for you to sleep because you're so used to having communications with that person before bed. And when you finally fall asleep you don't wanna wake up because you've realized that now your dreams are so much better than reality. Because before you met this person, you dreamed about all that you ever wanted and when you found them, all your dreams came true. And reality was better than your dreams. And now that they're gone you realized that you're right back where you started because now your heart is broken, dreams are better than reality.
December 14, 2009