It bothers me to continue to read articles that teenagers my age write about love. I've been through ALL of it. I've been through the uncertainty; i've been warmed by the imaginary blanket of security; i've been plagued by infatuation; i've been blinded by beauty; i've been captivated by perception; i've been assaulted with abuse; i've willingly let myself feel the torrent and the excitement; i've believed in LOVE. BUT i don't dwell on it. I don't sleep on it. I read articles about girls who just TORMENT themselves with it. I KNOW it's hard. But you just can't talk about how miserable you are when someone breaks your heart and then let them back in again to cover you with that shroud of uncertainty and insecurity. LET YOURSELF BE IN CONTROL. If you're being controlled, then the relationship isn't worth it. There should be boundaries. If he loved you he wouldn't put pressure on you to do things that you don't want to do. If he loved you he would wait and be responsible because he cares about your well being--- he thinks about you. Rushing things ends in disaster. If he loves you he'll want you be your friend as much as your boyfriend. He'll want to know your friends and your family and he'll be GOOD to you. If you're out of line, or jump to conclusions, or rowdy, and explosive THAT's another story. It's a two way thing. It takes two to tango, its takes two to cater, and it takes TWO to make a relationship work. And boyfriends, may i say, are pointless in high school. Have friends. Focus on your work. Do what you gotta do first, kiss later.