I love surprises but I hate uncertainty. I crave adventure but can't pass my comfort zone. I am my own prison and the warden is my fear. It's not that I'm scared for my future, because I know I will end up somewhere somehow with someone, I just don't know what to look forward to. My recent experience has made me change my mind about having kids. If I've learned anything from my mom it's how to be a good one and the world needs more good moms. Too many of this planet's problems could've been solved by some good old motherly advice. I feel I owe the world something for giving me a second chance, I just don't know what it is yet. Maybe my calling in life will be to become a mother, but that's never been my ambition. I always feel as though I can change the world without adding someone to it, but maybe all I need to do is change one person's world. Not even a child's life, maybe a child soul. Someone who never got to grow up because they stayed in the scared state of a child thinking there's a monster under their bed. Hate to break it to everyone, but monsters are real and they come in the form of bullshit. But here's a secret: you can fight back. Giving in to yourself and your primal instincts for wanting better are what make us age by our souls.
Just My Thoughts
December 20, 2017