Losing You

April 8, 2013
I’ve just come back from school, and I’m on my computer already! I could do anything to distract myself from your thoughts…I could read a book, do my homework or even have lunch.
But I just don’t want to. Because right now, all I really want to do is think about you. Think about the memories we made. Together. Or when we were apart. I knew I had you…and now I know that I don’t.

Our memories…that’s all I’m really left with. Remember the day when we first met and how I annoyed you with my not-so-funny jokes, and how you pretended to laugh at them? And the day when we had our first biggest fight and how you gave me a card that said “Open this envelope with a smile because today is a special day for you” on my birthday? And how that made us friends again? You’d made my day, really.
My chest hurts. It feels so empty.

I love us. I love everything about us. Everything. And I never wanted this to end. I hate seeing you go away. I just wish I could stop you somehow and tell you how much I need you here. With me forever. But that would be selfish.
Yesterday, I died a little inside when you said you’d be leaving at 10pm for your flight. And I was just like,”Wow, so you really ARE leaving us.”
But I can’t help it, can I? Neither can you. I just realized how much I hated goodbyes. I don’t want to ‘goodbye’ you.

The truth is, I’ve never been open to many people. I’ve been shy and quiet. So if I loved you enough to tell you all my secrets and show you the real me…you must be very special.
I regret everything I’ve said or done to hurt you. I’m sorry. I never meant to do those things to you.
No matter the distance between us, no matter where you are, or where I am…I will always love you. And I just hope you love me too. Just for me, make sure Canada treats you better than we did.
You’re my best friend; you’ll always be my best friend. You’re my best friend for life.
You’re taking away eight years of my life with you. You’re the only person who actually got me, who could tell when I was upset, who knew how to make me feel better...and now that person is going away.

Will you just do me a favor? Just promise me one thing, okay? Promise me that you will never forget about me. That you will always remember that you had a friend named Harshita.
And that’s all I want you to do.

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ForeverMystery said...
Feb. 8, 2016 at 3:11 am
I read this again and I'm crying :P I really hope to see you soon *if you know what I mean ;)* Love ya
Miss.OnlyGirl said...
Jun. 6, 2013 at 1:53 am
I hope you'd we your best friend again cookie(:
Fallenoutofgrace said...
Apr. 18, 2013 at 6:42 am
This is great swipe away tears with irenie you got what alot of poeple try to get and wrte down perfectly it was amazing way to go and keep it up
Irenie This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. said...
Apr. 18, 2013 at 6:40 am
Aww. This is so sweet. *Wipes away a tear* I know exactly what it’s like to have a best friend and lose her, but I’ve never been able to express it so well. Keep writing *sniffle* You’re very good!
ForeverMystery said...
Apr. 13, 2013 at 9:07 am
you idjit! do you think i'll ever forget you??? awesome work by the way...
cookiemonster24 This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Apr. 14, 2013 at 4:32 am
romanticpoet said...
Apr. 12, 2013 at 11:38 am
a very creative work
Gay_Nerd_Rules_School said...
Apr. 9, 2013 at 4:26 pm
I know I'm gay...but I think I shouldn't go unmentioned that I'm crying right now. It was so beautiful...and I'm always there when you want to talk.
cookiemonster24 This work has been published in the Teen Ink monthly print magazine. replied...
Apr. 16, 2013 at 11:49 am
Awww...thanks so much Andrew <3 :'D
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