I'm lost. I'm drowning in my own life, unable to find my way out. It's like I'm trapped in a black box and every step I take I run into a wall. I can't see which way I'm going, but I continue. Why do I do this, you might ask. I'm not sure. I guess I think that everything will get better if I keep going. I'm probably wrong. In fact, I know I'm wrong. It's just that I'm too scared to just stop and end it once and for all. That's terrifying. I don't want to die young; I want to keep living and make it through life. I have dreams I want to fulfill before I die. Such as traveling the world. I believe though, that what I want most is to be able to escape from this little town and jump into this huge world and leave everything behind once and for all. To start all over, to not have my past dragging me down. I must keep surviving, just make it through a couple more years. I will make my dreams reality.
I Need to Escape.
December 29, 2012